So for anyone who is a dedicated Degrassi fan, or maybe just a dedicated Deanna Casaluce fan, you've probably known for months that she planned to move to Los Angeles to pursue new roles and leave Degrassi, but on her Podcast on the-n.com last night, she confirmed it, saying she is leaving in two weeks! Deanna's character Alex is probably my favourite part of the whole show. I love it in general and will keep watching it if a season 8 happens, but it certainly won't be the same without her. But I'm also glad  that she is moving on to pursue other roles because this means we'll see more of her! If anyone else listened to her podcast, I think you'll agree that she's incredibly intelligent and very ambitious, so whatever she does in the future is going to be absolutely brilliant. Anyways, that's my little bit. Just wanted to express some Deanna love.

This is just the beginning of a poem/song I never finished...I'm really bad for that. Starting things and then getting writer's block and it could take me months to go back to it and finish haha

Let's pretend I'll see you tomorrow
So we won't have to say goodbye
Maybe then it won't hurt as much
Let's give it a try
If we never let ourselves believe
That it will be awhile
Til we're back in each other's arms
Then we'll never have to cry
I'm never that far from you
And it won't be too long now
Til we'll have those moments back
Without ever wondering how
How we could ever spend a moment
Taking for granted what we have
Not treasuring every smile and every laugh
Not knowing when we'll get them back

My life has begun to take a whole new path. A year ago, I was just finishing high school without any idea of what I wanted my future to hold. I didn't care what happened. I was happy just to let my life fall into place where it may, because that's how things work, right? Wrong.
After a few months of aimlessly hanging around, bored and unemployed, being left behind by friends who were moving off to university, or travelling the world, I realized that I needed something to look forward to. I needed my life to have meaning, to have a reason to wake up every morning. I needed a new beginning, something I had never experienced before; independence. I packed up my stuff and moved to a whole new province to live with family and found a great job working as a photographer which is part of what has changed my life so much. I learned how passionate I was about being artistic and expressive. I learned how to be professional and learned just how fascinating people can be. I realized that whatever career path I took, I wanted to be directly involved with other people. I wanted to be in the center of it all - watching, listening, being. I met hundreds of different kinds of people while living my life. I met people of different races, religions, family types and backgrounds. You name it, I had experienced it. I learned how to properly interact with other people and realized I'm not as shy as I always believed myself to be. I was personable, and thrived on these interpersonal relationships I was forming. I learned how to be independent, to make my own decisions, to cook my own meals, to appreciate myself and my surroundings. I got a whole new look at family life by living with my aunt and 3 cousins and was able to form an unbreakable, unforgettable bond with them. I gained a whole new appreciation for and perspective of family values. I learned that life isn't so scary out there in the real world. It's never easy but it's never that hard either. When I was younger, I had always been that child that spent almost no time away from my parents. I never went to camp because I'd cry until my parents let me stay home. I'd spend the night at friend's houses and be brought home sometimes before the sun had even gone down because being without my mom and dad was unfamiliar territory for me. For the most part, I don't think people realize what a huge, life altering step this was for me. I had never been away from my mother for more than 2 weeks before. I had never had a lasting job before. I had never been forced to cook meals for myself. I had never had real important responsibilities. Suddenly, after years of not even knowing any of these things existed for other people, I felt myself craving that lifestyle.


I never really cared much about my future before, in the sense that I felt it should just happen on its own with little to no input from me. I didn't want to know what was going to happen and didn't feel that I needed to have any warning or intuition about what was ahead. When I moved to Alberta, all of that changed for me. Everything sort of became like a metaphor. I loved the prairies because there was so much open space. I could go anywhere, see anything, and envision myself wherever I wanted by just looking ahead. I loved seeing what was before me. I loved feeling like I was actually going somewhere. I could drive for hours not worrying about what I was getting myself into because I could already see it. I literally had it all. There were no doubts, no questions, no fears. I just needed a road and positive disposition and I was all set.

Hi, I'm Bekki.
I just joined up with LiveJournal for some place to write my thoughts. So I'll likely just be posting little opinion entries, sometimes songs I've written, lyrics I like, short stories, etc. Thanks for reading. :)